So yesterday was my big day, it was the day I was supposed to find out whether or not the chemo I’ve been taking for 8 weeks has been effective, or if I would have to take it another 16 weeks. The doctor looked at my recent blood work results, and smiled, and told me that the virus was undetectable, (as in gone like the wind).
He told me to take the remaining thirty days of my chemo medication to complete this treatment, and then I could stop and he would continue to monitor me for six months. If the virus is still not present in my system during that period I will be pronounced officially cured. Then he wryly added that I only had a 2-4% chance of a recurrence ever again in my lifetime.
Hmmm . . . I’ve lived with this problem for a long time. By mid-December however I shall be rid of it forever. Wow! Praise God and thanks to all who have prayed for me over this terrible problem.
I have faced death many times in my life and I know for a fact that I’m not afraid to die. I did not, however, want to go through an extra 12 weeks of chemotherapy. Headaches, extreme fatigue, nausea – UGH! It is no fun.
Sometimes we just have to go through hard times. Just like a dark gloomy day the rain pours and pours, but we need to realize that above those black foreboding clouds is the sun shining brightly. Soon the clouds will move on and the sun will come out and bluebird skies will prevail.
There is only one thing that will expedite the recovery process for something like this and that is prayer. Do as I do and petition God and have faith that He will answer. Then hunker down and suffer through it as you await your deliverance. God has a plan for your life and it is a good plan. He doesn’t want anyone to fail or suffer. But for whatever reason, suffering is the plan for all of our lives. Just like death no one escapes it. When it is my turn I accept it; albeit I don’t enjoy it.
Why God doesn’t step in more often and help those who are struggling is a mystery. When I go through serious trials and wonder about where the love of God is, I always think of what Jesus did on the cross. Even God’s only Son was not spared suffering and in fact suffered as no one has ever suffered or will ever suffer. Since He loved us that much we can be assured that He loves us with an incomprehensible love and whatever we go through is designed to help us in some way and we simply must believe that all will eventually turn out for good.
As for death I feel that I’m indestructible until God’s purpose for my life has been fulfilled. I don’t worry about it ever. I belong to Him along with everything else in this world and I’m glad about that. When I go “toe up” my soul and spirit will be headed up. Praise God!
Psalm 24:1
The earth is the Lord’s and everything in it.
November 17, 2015 – Click here to listen